Creeping

I think I might be depressed or just really, really sad. I'm unable to tell the difference just yet. But, I am spending a lot of time sleeping or just laying in the bed.

I did cry some today but I didn't bawl my eyes out. If I saw someone with tears in their eyes, I usually try to see if there's anything I can do for them. My mother said nothing and continued on with her conversation about work.

I did eat, so far, two full meals. Cinnamon Toast Crunch didn't make me happy. The English muffin was boring. I did like the orange juice, though. I didn't have enough pesto sauce for the pasta at lunch and added some tomato sauce. I don't recommend it. Red and green don't make good looking food.

I'm still saying my affirmations and doing yoga. I did yoga at 530 in the afternoon as opposed to 930am like usual. I think I did yoga too close to eating. I felt sick during some positions and the burping wasn't pleasant smelling.

Doing yoga guarantees I'll take a shower for the day. If I don't watch myself, I can go a week without taking a shower. But then I can't stand my own stench. So, I can only imagine what it's like for others.

Maybe it's just an emotional period topped off with an emotional me from quitting smoking...yet again.