Lost

I just finished watching episode 10 of the first season. They're worried about some crazy dude who wasn't on the plane is on the island. I want to see what's going to happen next but I have got to detach my ass from this seat and do something else.

I can say that this past few days have been quite productive considering I'm not working.

I don't sleep past 9am.

I have affirmations I have memorized and say out loud every morning and before going to bed. I think they're helping me stay positive or at least focused on what I want.

I do yoga five days a week in the mornings. I noticed that if I don't, more than likely, I won't shower or put something else on besides pajamas.

There's an hour devoted to reading.

There's 3 1/2 hours for watching movies (or episodes of Lost.)

Another 3 hours is for writing and reading about writing.

Somewhere in there I eat breakfast every morning and take vitamins-that's something I've never done regularly. I cook for myself too. I mean real food as opposed to microwave dinners. It's been good trying out new things. I have noticed that I haven't been baking. Probably too dejected to do that at home.

It's been almost a month since I've left this house. One of my friend's is having a party in Oakland tomorrow and I've decided to go. I could use the couple of days outside of my monotony.

But, it brings up a few problems. The first is that I really can't afford to go. The train is about $40 round trip and I can't afford to eat or do anything else. Saturday afternoon is my class registration date for the spring semester of school. I can barely afford to pay for that.

I hate asking my mom for money when it is such an issue for her (but she likes to point out that she makes $44 an hour.) If I can't ask her for $20 then how am I going to ask for help moving back to Los Angelels and getting back into school?